voyeurism: its all the rage

everyone i know, and even a few people i don't know, but who happen to appear on my gchat friend list, have discovered g-video-chat.

my friend anne, who doesn't even have a webcam, made me video chat her, just so she could watch me: have wet hair, type in my blog, gchat, look at engagement photos for our friends brother (i'm sure she got some good facial expressions out of that one...wtf is the deal with engagement photos anyways? hey, here's a good idea! lets put ourselves in many different contrived poses that show off both the huge rock i gave you, and our undying love for each other...no, thanks.), watch tv, probably pick my nose and scratch what could be fleas out of my hair.

now i am convinced that my computer is watching me. i shield the isight camera now every time i do something i wouldn't want anyone inside my computer to see.

so really, i put electrical tape over it. permanently.

sorry friends, unless i'm getting royalties for 'hoppsters wild n' sexy webcam' at something around $1026.79/min, you're gunna have to book a flight to watch me do every day things around my apartment.

...

my older sister may be preggers.

she says she has been 'under the weather' for a few days not. its not a cold. not the flu. not strep throat.

symptoms include:

frequent urination
increased hunger
insatiable thirst
fatigue
heightened sense of smell
strong nails

sounds to me like all that 'practice' is catching up with them.

she went in today for a barrage of tests. she probably could've saved the $30 copay in favor of a pee stick from the dollar store to get the info she needs. but don't take my well-informed medical advice.

guess we'll know in a week if i am the next 'worlds best aunt' or remain 'mediocre younger sister' for another few years.

...

speaking of aunts.

i just became adopted aunt to an adorable 8 month old boxer/basenji mix. my new work/soul mate hannah rescued little Goose from foster care this weekend. i went with her. and immediately fell in love with her.

i guess the feeling was mutual. because hannah later told me that Goosey cried when she dropped me off at my apartment later.

i have also apparently found my 'dog lover' instinct. which i didn't actually know existed inside me. until i saw Goose. and Pattie.

who's Pattie? you may ask.

well, Pattie WAS the puppy-love of my life. a 15 week old long-haired chihuaha. the cutest thing i have ever laid my eyes on (and i only saw one photo of her on petfinder.com). we went to find her on saturday also. only to discover that she had already been adopted.

i am unreasonably devastated by this news. especially considering the fact that i didn't even want a puppy until wednesday. there were real live human tears when i got the news. she was supposed to be MY puppy.

i had already planned our new lives together. she would come with me to work, and sit under my desk and play at my feet during the days, and then sleep on the pillow next to me at night. it was perfect.

and yes, i was going to put her in my purse. and carry her with me everywhere. even where it isn't really appropriate to bring dogs. like the mall, restaurants, gynecological appointments, etc. (yes, i am THAT girl, i know, i'm as surprised as you are, trust me).

i am heartbroken.

my mom told me to just keep looking. i will find another puppy. but every puppy i see doesn't quite compare to Pattie. who is still tiled on my desktop wallpaper, btw.

but i didn't want A puppy. i want Pattie.

so until i do find my Pattie, Goose is getting a lot of my new puppy affection. she may have given me fleas, and i'm not even mad. new leaf, consider yourself turned over.

but what about caroline's pitt bull mix that i lived with for a year, and promptly despised as soon as she, ohhh, peed just about everywhere in my room, including on my bed? well, i still despise her.

so maybe i don't all of the sudden love all dogs. but at least i love some. a few. okay, two. and only one that i've met in real life.

its a start.

maybe i do have a soul.

maybe not.